A lot has been happening to me lately. Even the most random things are able to pop out inside my head. Ganyan ba pag may pinagdadaanan? Information overload eh.
With these, i always try to put up a front. Ayokong nakikita nila akong malungkot. Kasi hindi ako ganun. Kahit na mahirap ngumiti, pinipilit ko parin. Oh diba, #TeamStrong na kaya ako? Luuh. Mas mahal ko ang AKMu. *kawaaaaay!
With these, i always try to put up a front. Ayokong nakikita nila akong malungkot. Kasi hindi ako ganun. Kahit na mahirap ngumiti, pinipilit ko parin. Oh diba, #TeamStrong na kaya ako? Luuh. Mas mahal ko ang AKMu. *kawaaaaay!
Mahirap magpretend. And i know so, `cause it's about a month now since I've been wearing a mask for everyone to see. I don't want to be looked at as nakakaawa while he's there, laughing his whole heart out. Hindi ulit ako bitter. Hindi ko lang matanggap na ganoon siya ka-selfish para hindi ako hayaang maging masaya. Kasi hindi niya `ko kayang kausapin.
Don't get me wrong, I AM HAPPY WITH MY FRIENDS, LIKE ALL THE TIME. BUT THERE ARE TIMES THAT I KNOW THEY CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH. AND SOMEHOW, I KNOW ONLY HE CAN FIX IT, BUT HE WON'T.
And sooooo, I am trying to move on. Pero hindi ko pa magawa-gawa kasi naguguluhan ako. Kaya ito, still stuck with the whole pretending thingy. Until one day, he came.
Don't get me wrong, I AM HAPPY WITH MY FRIENDS, LIKE ALL THE TIME. BUT THERE ARE TIMES THAT I KNOW THEY CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH. AND SOMEHOW, I KNOW ONLY HE CAN FIX IT, BUT HE WON'T.
And sooooo, I am trying to move on. Pero hindi ko pa magawa-gawa kasi naguguluhan ako. Kaya ito, still stuck with the whole pretending thingy. Until one day, he came.
SUPERMAN! Oh, don't get your hopes too high `cause i don't feel anything for him. I know when and how I've developed admiring feelings or falling in love (i still effin` love kasi `yung kaklase ko. Sad.) And I'm positive this ain't anything like that. But there's this strange feeling bubbling up inside whenever I see or even talk to him. Gusto niya best friend ko. And I have nothing against that kasi nga wala namang something from me to him.
Recently, we started chatting and talking -- mostly `bout my gorg. friend. Hahaha! I mean i know him kasi kalaban ko siya sa debate last year, but not as now like we're friends na talaga. Masaya siya kausap and he makes me laugh easily. I would really like to be one of his closest friends kasi feeling ko hindi siya nang-iiwan.
I know this is all too fast to trust a guy or even a person like that but, I have enough doubts in my life. I think I'll just go with it.
But my whole point of this whole blog is...
And to Mark Vincent Monteclaro, thank you for making me happy. I enjoy your company virtually and personally. I want to get to know you better and make you one of the points in my circle of friends. And i hope mabasa mo `tong blog `pag close na tayo. Hahaha!
P.S. "Superman" kasi Clark ang fraternity name niya. He's one of the Phians.
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